If you know me in person - really know me - then you know that I give and give and give and sacrifice for the people I love. You probably also know that I love an abundance of people from all walks of life. Your strata, skin color, mythological beliefs and clothes do not determine how much care I have for you. And despite the fact that I have been attracted to many people in my life, I still possess a capacity for commitment to others that is honorable and, sometimes, self-destructive. In the same token, I have known when to walk away and when to run - usually later than I should - but it's always been better than never.
And, while I've had two or three guys in my life at one time with whom I shared a mutual interest, I am a one-track woman, I don't seem to have the capacity to be REALLY attracted and into more than one person at one time. I wish I did. Often. Because it's so hard to know if I'm wasting my time or making the most of it when all I can think about is this one person.
And he's in my head right now. For months, it seems. And I don't know how it happened. I didn't think he was a big deal at first because I met someone else the same week that I liked WAY more. But then Yoko broke up the band, and the next thing I know, I can't stop thinking about him, even though I know he's probably not really a good fit for my life. Even though he's a flake. Even though he walked out on dinner. As I said that infamous night, "You don't get a second chance to make a fifth impression."
And you know what else I know? I probably should stop wasting my time with him, because when you know you know. And when you don't know, you know.
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